Missing Old friends
can easily turn into
Missing Gold friends.
I've had a rough year; full of loss, loss and more loss. Mixed in i've had a healthy mix of changing location by getting out of the city and settling in the country where i see trees and purple flowers instead of cars and traffic lights. I hear birds instead of police helicopters. I hear army helicopters from Camp Gruber, flying about 14 feet overhead, but that's fun cause they are practicing being important. And they only do it on pretty days.
There is a boston terrier who runs up to say hi occasionally. He brings a stick to me so i will throw it, but when he finds it, he grabs it and takes it home with him.
In the move i found a million vhs tapes.
So when i get bored i pop one in and watch the blurry movie that used to seem like awesome quality to us all. It may have been a childhood recording, or a horrible 80's movie with no plot. Whatever it is, it's my entertainment and i'd damned well better appreciate it.
As far as comfort goes, the breeze that goes through the trailer is the result of the tornado that hit it 14 years ago. If i don't like it, i can adjust by removing clothing or putting more on.
I have 3 acres i get to mow with a reel mower. The exciting part is the holes in the ground. They are about 2 inches in diameter and they are deep. i'm pretty sure they are snake holes.
Then there is the skunk that lives under the trailer.
I though it was a gorgeous cat the first time i saw it. Until it turned it's head and I saw the white stripe. Anyway the coat was in much too good of condition.
The good news is: no traffic.
No obnoxious fumes, no lights, no shootings at the
apartments down the road.
No sitting in traffic minute after minute after minute.
My part of town had turned into the center of town. It went from being on the edge of town to the main area of congestion and according to the police report, the main crime center of town. I couldn't go outside because the dogs on each side of my yard barked at me incessantly. I had no peace. I hated my little room.
So I lay in bed and watched the same movies on HBO over and over, day after day.
10 years slipped away just like that. I was dead. I had died.
Thank god i escaped. Thank you god. Thank you so much.
I live in a small town now
I love the community.
The farmers market is awesome.
The people are great.
They are creative.
There is a university here.
The people are warm and genuine.
they take walks an stop and talk
They sing and paint
and plant things.
I love life
even tho i am sick;
even tho i am in pain
even tho i am getting old;
even tho my youth has slipped away;
even tho i have no one who loves me;
even tho;
even tho;
even tho;
i love my life more today
than i have in years.
thank you god, so much
for my little town here,
where the 3 rivers come together and spring up out of the ground in the falls.
It's so pretty.
It really is. :)
M
